There’s a post sitting in my drafts pile, all the content is there, I wrote it by hand in my diary and typed it into a post for you guys. However, I’m slowly becoming more conflicted about publishing it. I’m not entirely sure why this is the case, but I think it has something to do with the past week and a bit. I’ve been deeply inspired by other bloggers who talk so openly about their mental health and how through them being vulnerable, they’ve aided and helped their readers. Their words and stories have challenged me to share some of my own battles and thoughts. Sure, I’ve talked about my own struggles with an eating disorder on here, but nothing like the scale that some of peoples share. All of this has left me staring at this page unable to continue, too conflicted and confused to really do much else.
So, I’m putting it to rest for a bit and moving on to this one, I’m going to change my tune and instead of looking at myself I’m going to spend a while contemplating all the things I’m grateful for. Continue reading “Things I’m grateful for – pt3”
Losing some people
This one might seem a bit strange, how can I be thankful to lose some people in my life?
Well to start with I don’t mean people who I know that have passed away, what I’m taking about is the people in my day-to-day life who I’ve drifted apart from or left all together. I’m not a big fan of the phrase ‘toxic people’ because it’s harsh and degrading of them, but there have been people in my life who haven’t exactly been good for me. I’ve always struggled with the friends who have left my life and I cling on to a broken friendship for longer than what’s healthy. It’s only been in the last year or so that I’ve matured enough to understand that good that have come out of certain individuals leaving.
I don’t belive for a second that cutting someone straight out of your life suddenly is a healthy approach to things. No matter the relationship you have with someone you used to deem a good friend, however complicated it is, there will always be good memories you’ve made with them. Am I happy that some people are out of my life? Yes, I am. It might have taken me a while to understand that I am better off without them and they were capping my growth as a person, but looking back I’m grateful for changing friendships and losing some who weren’t all that good for me, but I’m also thankful for the good times we had when I knew then. Continue reading “Things I’m grateful for- pt2”
Throughout the past few weeks I’ve been doing a lot of reflection on my life so far. I’m not sure if this is because it’s only a matter of months till I’m 20 and I’m coming to the realisation that I’m almost two decades old and most certainly not a child or teenager anymore, or if it’s from other things. The more I venture out of my shell and met people both online and offline the more I get a better perspective of life and how good mine is in comparison to some.
Like all, I have good days and bad days but no matter what type of day I’m having I want to start making a habit of staying thankful and grateful for the things in my life. There have been key events that I can look back on and immediately thank God for, the healing of anorexia is the one my mind goes straight to. But I don’t want to just been looking out for the big things in my life that God has had a part in, I want to be making a conscious effort to be seeking out his kindness in the little thing in day-to-day living.
So this is what this series is, one big growing, continuous list of things I am grateful for.
I hope you enjoy. Continue reading “Things I’m grateful for – pt1”