What will define me?

First things first, I hope you are all doing ok. The world has gone a little crazy as of late and I hope you’re all well and somewhere safe. I’ve had to move out of Bangor and cut my first year at University short, what’s been a little sad however, I’m glad I’m now with family and not alone during lockdown.

I’d like to quickly explain some changes that are happening to my blog and what you can be expecting from here on in. The beady eyed amongst you will notice that my posts have been a little different as of late. Not only have I been posting every Wednesday, but I’ve been talking about mental health less and less.

For those who have been following my blog for a few years you’ll remember a time when I only talked about mental health and my recovery of anorexia. Since recovering of my eating disorder in August 2018, I’ve been posting less and less about my experiences of it.

Part of having a presence online is setting healthy boundaries of what you do and don’t share. I’d reached the point where I felt as if the only thing I had to offer was an eating disorder, that it was my one redeeming quality. But in reality, I’m so much more than my past illness, I’m a writer, a student, a book nerd and I’m a survivor. So, I made the decision to step away from talking about mental health and to instead talk about my other passion… writing.

Being able to talk about something other than an eating disorder has been amazing for my mental health, for the first time in a long while I don’t feel as it my old illness is my defining quality. I still have a passion for talking about the need for better treatment for eating disorders, but I needed to take a step back from talking about it so often and that’s been a very healthy thing for me to do.

I do understand that a lot of you did follow my blog for my post about mental health and that you may have felt like I’ve been neglecting you guys. I wish I could say I’ll be back posting about that topic frequently soon, but that just isn’t the case. What I’ve decided to do is structure my posts in a very deliberate way to keep to my own boundaries and to still pay respect to my blog’s roots.

I’m now posting every Wednesday afternoon. Posting once a week and on a set day will give you guys some more consistency from my blog and when to expect a post. These posts will be writing based, I’m a writer at heart and I enjoy talking about it. However, the last post of the month will be a little different. On the last Wednesday every month I’m going to be breaking away from talking about writing and instead just have a sit-down conversation with you all. These chatty posts will be very similar to my older posts where I talked about my ED recovery and mental health things. They’re going to be very relaxed and will cover a range of topics.

I hope you can all understand why I’ve made these changes. It’s difficult to put into words just how good for me stepping away from talking about the eating disorder has been. I’ve been able to go through my first year at University feeling like any normal student, I haven’t been bringing up anything unnecessary from my past. I’ve been able to share my blog with more friends and my classmates as I’m not worried about them judging me for having anorexia.

Having my blog writing focused has also helped me so much as a writer. It’s been giving me a break from my University work. I’m writing on here because I love it, not because I have to pass an assessment. I’ll be honest, I was getting to the point where I was dreading blogging, I was thinking if it was time for me to stop. I didn’t want to be constantly bringing up and talking about my old habits, it was bringing my mood down so much. Since making the change to my blogs focus, I’ve loved sitting behind my laptop and talking to you all again. I’ve got my spark back.

I’m feeling positive about my blogs future and I hope you guys are as excited as I am. I feel that having one post a month dedicated to a chilled-out chat with all of you will be so nice and I’m looking forward to them.

Thank you all for your support of the past few months as I’ve been transitioning into this new set up and have been finding my feet. Every one of you are so greatly appreciated, you’re the ones making my passion possible.

Keep yourselves safe, wash your hands and remember to be kind and considerate to those who are more vulnerable during this time. I’ll see you all next week.

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