I had a weird realization yesterday as I scrolled through Etsy.
I was looking for next years planner, debating whether I wanted to stuck with my good old trusty bullet journal or transition into something much more flexible like a travelers notebook. I’m not sure how many others also give so much consideration into a few pieces of papers, but for me I just need a physical planner to get me through a year (I can’t stand any of that electronic stuff).
Pages deep into the wonderful site I’d settled on a planner (a travelers notebook) and was considering how many inserts I’d need and of what type. One lesson my dad taught me was to have a plan, a five year plan at the minimum and that’s a lesson that’s suck with me. I find myself very unsettled when I can’t see where I’m going, what my year will look like and it’s translated over into how I use my planners.
I’ve chosen to use a travelers notebook for 2019 because I think it’s going to give me the flexibility a bullet journal can’t, but that got me thinking…
How much flexibility is there is my life plan for God to move?
I’m making all these preparations for the upcoming year. I’m going to be moving out and going to University, leaving my job as a result, hopefully passing my driving test and gain my full licence. It’s all very well and good, but what if God doesn’t want me to follow that path?
We’re slowly becoming a planning generation (I think Instagram and beautifully decorated or minimalist planners have aided that) less and less off us are spontaneous. There’s so much uncertainty in the world right now that we’re clinging to plans for a sense of security, and I don’t blame us.
But as a Christians I’m starting to feel a bit conflicted about planning my life out.
Probably one of the most quoted pieces of scripture going might just be Jeremiah 29:11 –
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – and I don’t always like slotting it in my posts without careful thought as it’s so easy to take scripture out of context and just make a mess of things. But for today I’m going to leave it in because I it is a reminder that God knows what he’s doing.
As Christian we know that God made each and every one of us and we know that he has a plan for us. But how often do we really give God the wheel? I’ll admit that I’m the worst for it, these after thought prayers liter my life. I’ll make this plan and then turn around to God and say “This is what I’m doing, if you don’t want me to do then then feel free to step in”. I know what I’m doing isn’t the correct way of doing it, but do I really want to spend hours in prayer to be met with silence or an answer I’m not wanting to have.
Realistically, I’ve failed so many times that I feel ashamed to even cooperative with God on a plan. I just find myself hoping and guessing that what I’m doing is what is right for me at that time because I don’t know how to be walking along side God when it comes to my future.
So is there this balance? Can we as Christians have some sort of plan made for ourselves whilst till leaving and giving God the opportunity to move at any time?
I think there is.
Sure, I haven’t got it all worked out in my own life just yet, but I do see how older more mature Christians in my life approach things and I do think it’s possible.
I see how they spend time in prayer (frequent prayer), they fast both in private and part of a larger body with their church or life group. Some of my family friends won’t let you leave their house until they’ve prayed with you (and gave you a goodie bag of cake to take home). They don’t have God as an after thought and I’m so pumped for that! I want to be this woman of God where my eyes don’t drift from my savior. That I’m this tiny furnace of prayer, I so desperately want my life to revolve around God, to give him the wheel.
But guys, I lack so much self discipline.
So that’s my challenge for myself and for you today, to let God take the wheel. It doesn’t have to be in one go, it can be gradual. If you feel prompted to pray more, then try and pray. If you feel lead to spend more time reading your bible then give it a go. If you want to do group reading plans, then find people you know and ask, if they say no then ask me. I’m sure I’ll be able to round up a few of us and we’ll do it together. If you want to fast and you’ve never done that before then talk to your youth pastor, your pastor, a mature christian who you trust. Have someone hold you accountable and help guide you through it.
If we keep our eyes on God and are prepared to let him take the wheel, I’m confident that in an age of planners and organisation we can keep out faith real and thriving.